Faith in the infinite

Today I am chewing on a section from My Utmost for His Highest:

My misgivings arise from the fact that I search within to find how He will do what He says. My doubts spring from the depths of my own inferiority. If I detect these misgivings in myself, I should bring them into the light and confess them openly— “Lord, I have had misgivings about You. I have not believed in Your abilities, but only my own. And I have not believed in Your almighty power apart from my finite understanding of it.” (February 26)

The context of this section questions whether we truly believe the Lord will provide, or whether in our heads (and hearts) we are silently doubting how He can do so "in the real world."  I am struck by the irony that this particular lesson resonated with me so deeply--over the past seven years in particular I have repeatedly learned to trust the Lord to provide, even when circumstances seem bleak, and it is an area that I have recently felt I have come much closer to mastering--but in truth there are still times when I am trying to "noodle" how He can possibly work in a particular situation. 

Perhaps He is prompting me to release the desire to think of a possible solution for Him, "just in case."  Or maybe He is trying to just show me that the road ahead is much longer than the one I have already traversed.  In any case, I am making a conscious choice to let Him decide how to work in me to increase my faith.  I am simply listening, waiting for Him to keep speaking.