Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Lethargy

I've been in a weird place the past few weeks.  Usually I'm the first to get up and go, do a million zillion things at once, be super productive.  Instead, an odd feeling of lethargy has overtaken me.  I find myself doing the weirdest things as a result:

Sitting holding the phone to my ear after the call has already been disconnected
Staring at my blog wondering what on earth to write about
Re-reading a passage from a book multiple times and still feeling like it somehow doesn't connect
Finding my mind wandering to the most random things when I'm trying to focus on something important
Over-analyzing little things that shouldn't be a big deal
Wanting desperately for something to be different about my life, but lacking the motivation to figure out how to make it happen
Feeling stale in my prayer life and quiet times (one of the scarier things)
Realizing that I can't exactly remember what I said on a particular occasion

I know there are a lot of factors influencing my lethargy, but I'm praying that somehow God will use it to draw me closer to Himself.  There is so much to be done in the next month in terms of my job, my housing situation, my summer plans, and even little pesky things like finding new car insurance.  I need an extra measure of grace as I approach the end of the school year, and I'm praying for wisdom to determine what next steps I need to take and how to get around my lethargic mindset and actually make them happen.

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